My laptop died this weekend. Well it didn't completely give out, only the screen did. Basically I have a working laptop with no screen to project it onto. I need to get a monitor cable or something and hook it up to the TV or something and back up my files before I pitch it. So I bought one of these babies over the weekend:

Should be at my doorstep on Monday or Tuesday :) That's right, I've made the conversion from PC to MAC. In my defense, I am REQUIRED to buy one of these for my major by either the 2nd year in the program, or they're saying now by the second semester of the first year, which will be this coming January for me. I love Apple computers, but I won't be completely satisfied until I can find a way to install programs and run emulators without actually having to purchase anything, like I could do with a PC. Because I am definitely not going to put down $500+ for InDesign when I can get it online for free. Yeeea. If someone could direct me to a nice, cheap PC desktop, I think I might have to purchase it along with my Apple laptop.

So I think I've discovered a fear I have that is greater than my fear of spiders. And that is... driving in bad weather. I love driving. Love love love driving. But after being in two accidents where I've lost control of the car, I don't think I trust cars anymore. (Or my ability to drive in bad weather.) Last week I had to drive up to Kent from Louisville, and that was about 6 hours of heavy rain and near zero visibility that I had to endure. My heart starts racing and my hands get clammy, I lose feeling in my legs and I constantly relive the moments of when I spun out of control. I think I've been permanently affected by my accidents and can no longer operate a car unless there is sunshine everywhere and the roads are bone dry. And even then I can't feel completely safe. Plus, this is just rain; I have no idea how I'm going to react when there is snow and black ice all over the highways. I feel that instead of maturing and feeling more in control, I've instead regressed into this pathetic dependent status where I'd like to be chauffeured and taken care of. I want to feel safe. Hopefully when I have to drive up to Kent tomorrow (I am once again in Louisville), the weather won't be as bad as they say it's going to be. I will gladly give up my driving privileges and have my mom drive me back rather than say my prayers for 6 hours and mentally divide up my posessions among my friends.

I have a few photos to upload but I left my cable in Kent, so I will add to this post later. But they're from my weekend in Lexington, because Ben turned 21! Wasn't the big shebang that it could have been, but I suppose I have to save my energy for when Ashley's 21st comes up this weekend. Until later...

Listening: BT - This Binary Universe
Playing: Sprung (DS)
Watching: Where My Dogs At?